I had such a fear of leaving my house and being anywhere that wasn’t my home. One day after a chat with my mum, she said something that struck a nerve with me, but deep down I knew she was right. I started looking into ways for me to start changing my life around so I could become comfortable with being somewhere that wasn’t just my bedroom. I started taking up gardening as it was getting me out of my house without technically having to leave my home. The upside to this also meant that if I was feeling overwhelmed, I could simply just go back inside and try again the next day.
I made a rule for myself that I would spend a minimum of ten minutes in my garden a day. Slowly I was able to increase this ten-minute period to twenty minutes, followed by forty-five minutes and eventually an hour. There were a few days when this was hard, but I’m lucky that I had a supportive mum to stay by my side. Now I can confidently spend time in my garden for multiple hours without feeling overwhelmed.
My garden is really starting to look lovely. I’m now learning how to grow berry plants in Australia. Different cities and countries have different climates so therefore have their own recommended ways to grow berries. I’ve never grown something edible before, so this is truly exciting. I’m learning so much and I simply cannot wait to sink my teeth into some homegrown berries. Mum’s nuts for berries just like me so no doubt she’ll also be excited. I haven’t told her about my berry plans just yet, I want to surprise her with a taste test.
I still buy seeds online. I’m not comfortable with the idea of going to a shop just yet, but I feel like it could happen in the next couple of months. I’m not going to tell my mum I’m planning to leave the property yet, I don’t want her to get her hopes up. Plus, it’s less pressure for me.